Am I Hiding My Hearing Loss?

imageThe first time I told a stranger I had hearing loss was in a Bible study 13 years ago. As a first-time attendee with a new set of behind-the-ear hearing aids, I mostly kept quiet and tried not to draw attention to myself. My hair was long, and I covered my ears (and hearing aids) with it. When the other women in the group nodded at the teacher, I nodded, too. I had no idea why I was nodding, but I didn’t want to be the only person not nodding so I went along. When the other women laughed at the teacher’s comment, I laughed, too. But I did not know why we were laughing.

We divided into groups of eight and each group sat at a round table with a list of Bible verses to read aloud. One person was to read a verse, and then the next person was to read and the next and so on. After it was my turn to read, the lady sitting beside me said in a matter of fact way, “I just read that verse.” My cheeks flushed and my tongue turned dry. I mumbled back, “Sorry. I didn’t hear because, um… I have a hearing loss.”

I wish I could be more like a woman named Dana.

Dana worked at the local health food store as cashier. Her frosted hair was pulled into a ponytail to reveal her behind-the-ear hearing aids. On each hearing aid was a ‘hearing aid charm’ adorned with beautiful rhinestones that matched the other jewelry she wore. Below Dana’s work name tag was a button that read “I read lips and know sign language.”

The customer, my friend Rebecca, was intrigued by the hearing aid jewelry and button. Rebecca had a close family friend with hearing loss and remembered how she had to communicate with her friend: by getting the friend’s attention, making eye contact, and speaking with good enunciation. This knowledge prompted Rebecca to use good communication skills with Dana. Rebecca made sure to maintain Dana’s eye contact while talking and to speak with clear diction.

Okay… I’ll try to be more like Dana.

At a church cookout a couple of years ago, I noticed a teen boy walking toward some trees alone. I asked the youth leader if everything was okay, and the leader went to talk to the boy. Come to find out, some other boys at the picnic had teased the teen about his behind-the-ear hearing aids. Upon closer inspection, I noticed that his hearing aids and ear molds were an eye-catching camouflage green, cream, and brown.

I asked the youth leader if he would come with me to talk with the boy. When we did, I showed the teen my royal blue behind-the-ear hearing aids. I told him I had worn hearing aids probably as long as he had been alive and that I was okay with wearing them. He told me he had cancer when he was little and lost much of his hearing because of it. I was amazed at all this boy had been through in his short life, and I felt compelled to encourage him with these words: “I think your hearing aids are really cool. I wish mine looked like yours.” It was the first time I saw the boy smile since arriving at the cookout.

It can be hard to make hearing loss visible.

When I hid my hearing aids and pretended to hear everyone around me, I was not being honest with them or myself. It took time for me to quit hiding my hearing aids and to stop pretending I could hear everything when I really could not.

Think back to Dana and my friend Rebecca in the grocery store. Imagine if Dana had not revealed her hearing aids or worn a button that read “I read lips….” Would Rebecca have known to get Dana’s attention first before speaking?

Are we visible or hiding?

How many of us can relate to Dana and are open about our hearing aids and communication requirements?

How many of us can relate to what I did in 2003 when I hid my hearing aids and pretended to hear everything in the Bible study?

How many of us have been in the teen boy’s shoes and been teased about our hearing loss?

How many of us can relate to what I did in 2014 when I showed off my hearing aids to the teen, a boy I did not know?

Share your thoughts with Lipreading Mom in the Comments below.

 

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7 thoughts on “Am I Hiding My Hearing Loss?

  1. When people ask about my hearing issues, I pull back my hairand reply, “This is my radio. It runs on tiny batteries, so if my radio quits while I’m talking with you, I’ll excuse myself by saying, “I have to change my battery”.”

  2. Wow, I am one of many who can relate to the smile and the nod! I wore my hearing aids under my hair. Living on a lake meant not understanding anyone at the beach so I nodded a lot back then :).

  3. My aging husband is suffering hearing loss and is so private about it, that I didn’t know about it until it got really noticeable. How can I help him accept it without him feeling inadequate? The male ego is a sensitive thing!

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